Every time the shit has gone down in my life...I decided that I should just get used to the mediocrity...And yet, here I am.
Because somewhere in the distant past, I sold myself on the belief that there's not a tragedy in this life that will make me give in. You have to decide that sort of thing BEFORE tragedy strikes.
We human beings will go to great lengths to avoid making powerful decisions out of fear of the aftermath, even if what's on the other side has the potential to be absolutely liberating.
If it SHOULD HAVE occurred a different way, it WOULD HAVE. Just because the end result isn't what we planned doesn't nullify the whole experience or make it any less meaningful.
. . .he saw something within me that I didn't see within myself, and he knew he would be doing me a great disservice by letting me throw in the towel.
If you want to create change in your life, strive first to accept the way you are now.
As it happens, I've been in and out hospitals a lot in my life . . . It's part of what inspired me to become a nurse.
Look around you. How many people do you know who effortlessly and authentically convince you that life is absolutely, cosmically, unquestionably as amazing as God intended it to be? Recall the various types of communication you encounter daily. Do you see hope? Do you see joy? Do you see wonder?
The dark wolf was winning by a landslide, so much that I wasn't aware that a white wolf even existed . . . Once you become consciously aware of your recurring thoughts, then your brain patterns slowly become less a matter of coincidence and more a matter of choice.
It is early October of 2012. I am lying alone on the floor of my bedroom for the fourth consecutive day with thoughts of suicide becoming more frequent...